 Hi , welcome to a little piece of my life.  First thing let me tell u a little about myself I am 35 , married to a wonderful man whom god has blessed me with, his name is clay. I have two kids my oldest is a boy 20 named Bruce; my youngest is a girl 14 named Ashley. I also have been blessed with a beautiful grand baby named Whitney ; now I know what every one meant when they said if they knew grandkids where this great we would have skipped the kids (well I have got to say ditto to that now). I live in a small town in Kentucky where I have been all my life I love it here so many good things in Kentucky still a lot of the old values and such. I just hope and pray it stays this way. Well I am gonna tell u a little of what God has done in my life; so grab a cup of coffee set back and put your feet up and hope it touches you in some way First and for most I give Him all the glory and praise for the things he has done. I was not raised in a Christian home not at all in fact far from it. My dad worked on the farm plus worked at G.E. so I saw him maybe 2 hours a day on good days but when I did, don't get me wrong it was awesome. My mom was a stay at home mom who let me know that I was not wanted around. I messed up her pretty house, you see I was well unexpected the doctors had told her she was going through the change and no worry of getting pregnant. Whoops they where wrong ha ha along came me; by the time I had came along there where a lot of problems between her and my dad and she had became dependent on drugs
Most of my days consisted of seeing my mom passed out and saying she
wanted to die and for a child to hear that day after day it kinda gets
to you . When I was about 6 I remember going to my aunts house and
staying the night and the next day was Sunday so I got to go to church
and it was awesome even then to me as a child I felt so much peace and
love there I never wanted to leave well from then on my aunt made sure I
was in church (praise the Lord). When I was about 10 I had come to love
this person called Jesus I liked the way he treated people and was
always talking about him to my dad and mom well they finally gave in and
went with me probably at that time just to shut me up. After a period of
time my dad excepted Jesus as his personal savior and got involved in
church ( oo by this time we had moved to a town and he had a lot more
time) my dad is the type of person when he does something he goes all
out. He was driving the bus 3x a week and there everytime the door
opened, so I was a happy camper. I had decided to give my life to Jesus
to and was sprinkled with water. Shortly after this I had started
noticing my hands where changing they were getting hard and cracking
open and getting infected all the time I had been to see numerous
doctors and none of them had an answer until one day I was taken to one
and he looked at me and said I have a disease called scleraderma and
would not live to see 16 well it devastated my parents and they took me
right after the doctor visit to have hands laid on me and prayed for me,
I was just a kid and didn't understand why every one was so upset. I new
it was gonna be ok, I had a peace even then unspeakable so during the
next few months I was in and out of hospitals getting test and such
looking back now it was more than that I was a guinea pig, because at
that time it was very rare. During this year also my dad had come to
terms that mom had a problem with drugs and had got with the pharmacists
and started weaning her off the meds.It took awhile but finally I had a mom and she had given her life to the Lord to. I had about 4 months there that was awesome we were a happy family and there was laughter in the home finally .Those few months where great but my mom had done such damage to her body with all the drugs and starving herself that she died right b4 my 11th birthday. I remember waking up to find mom dead on the bathroom floor I was pushed aside at that time and no one explained what has happened and what death really was so a pointer I have here is if your family has a loss please take time out and talk to you child because it will effect them their whole life. It was so awful things where just finally good and now all this and I became very angry and withdrawn my dad also left the church and took me and moved out of the house to a place where he had a new job and a new house. During the next few years it was a miserable time I was going to school ,cleaning, cooking plus working to. I was totally unsupervised with no discipline and left to find things out the hard way. I gotten pregnant when I was 14 and was planning on having a abortion dad was taking me well thank God I have a sister who is and was walking with the Lord. As dad and I was walking out the door to go to take care of what I had thought was a mistake God spoke to my sister in an audible voice and said to stop them and praise the Lord she did . I was scared and confused and was searching for anything to help. My sister was going to a full gospel church and ask me to go with her so I did and it was there at that time that I really new what it meant to except Jesus as your savior because I felt so dirty and miserable and I set there in my seat and told Jesus if he wanted me even as dirty and sinful as I was, then here I am. He is soooooooo loving so full of grace that he took me and I felt the same peace then as I had when I was a small child it is like being at home it just feels so right. I told my sister the decision I had just made and when the alter call came I went forward and confessed my decision and the people gathered around me never condemning me but loving me and laying hands on me to be baptized with the Holy Spirit. I was familiar with it but never new 4 sure if it was real well let me tell u it is real very real I went down and was there 4 what seemed like forever and the love I felt the peace I felt was so awesome I never wanted to get up; it was great to be in His presence and I knew that is where I was he was all around me working in me. I got up and even had my prayer language I felt like I was ready to take on the world for my Lord . So if u have ever heard that was for the Christians back then think again it is a great gift for all who except his son Jesus Christ the Holy Spirit gives us boldness like u wouldn't believe and quickens our spirits to be able to walk a more victorious life. I also now know what the scripture means I will forgive the sins of your youth because as most young people I have had my battles over the years most of them my fault thinking it is ok to do this or that just once to try it; well never think that, it is a trap Satan gets his foot in and wham bam this next minute u r doing all the things u know u shouldn't I think through my years I have tried a little of everything knowing it was wrong and giving into sin so if u ever get down and say God don't want me, let me tell u yes he does ; he has always picked me up and washed me clean more times than I can count and he will for u as well During my youthful years I had like I said tried it all drugs,booze, and even a abusive marriage which lasted 2 years.Once divorced I went a little off the deep end confused on why all this had happened all I wanted was a daddy for my child and here I was 18 divorced a young son and all by myself. But as I have grown up I can look back now and see that even in all the mess I had created God was still working in me and for me he provided me with a job and a home to raise my child in. 20
When I was 19 I meet a guy named Clay who was different from all the men I had meet before he wasn't into all the running and stuff but more of a relaxed way of doing things and besides he had the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen. About 8 weeks into our relationship he had made a comment that all he wanted was someone to love and that would love him back. Well my heart melted and we have been together ever since. We did the party scene and lived a life not for the Lord I wish I could go back at times I regret so much by losing so much time of growing and working for the Lord so if you are reading this and are not where you should be with God don't waste anymore time believe me you will regret it to.
About ten years ago I was tired and clay was tired and said enough is enough at this time my hubby wasn't saved but over the years I had told him about Jesus and who he was and he knew I was a walking miracle because I had told him about what the doctors had said. We started going to church and clay excepted Jesus into his heart praise the Lord and we started on our walk together and got all the junk out of our houseand started witnessing to all our friends well needless to say when they found out there was no free booze and such they didn't stick around long. We got more and more into His word and was learning and growing on a daily basis and still do to this day the Lord has done so much for us it is unreal he has healed me even from a 2 year migraine (boy that was a toughie) through a word of knowledge from a pastor he has provided for all our needs and even given us the desires of our hearts. We have had trials and tribulations as well but it is so different now we know that our God is big enough to get us through what ever comes along and we even grow stronger during those times now where as before we would give up and say what's the use . So when u r going through rough times step back and look and see what u can learn from it and know that God turns every thing too the good for those who love Him. I have talked enough but the main thing I want u to know is that we serve an awesome God who will always takes us back into His arms and washes away all our sins never to be remembered again ; He has a wonderful gift and provision called the Holy Spirit who is for us today. He is our healer by his stripes we are healed not may be but are and it is yours for the asking. One thing also to keep in your heart is God is a God who answers prayers in His time not our so don't get discouraged just hold fast and know He is at work and to know that sometimes the answer is no not because He don't love us but because he sees a much bigger picture than we do and knows what is best for us. Jesus is coming for us one day and we all need to be ready for that glorious day and I know myself I want to be doing the master's work when he does appear not wavering for a minute for it will be a day and hour we know not.
I believe we are coming into some pretty rough times as Christians I myself believe we are going to have to endure a lot more that a lot of others believe I feel why would Jesus and all the prophets spoke of it as much as they did if we where not gonna be here I just pray and hope we all see the truth before it all takes place we are living in a great time we are seeing first hand the bible prophecy's unfold before our eyes. Just be aware that we just might have to go through more than u have been taught I am not trying to change any ones mind just keep it in the back of your mind and be prepared for whatever may come we are not appointed to God's wrath but I feel we will have to make a stand for him and some may even lose their life because of it. I am ready and trusting in Him to give me strength and wisdom in that day. TO GOD BE THE GLORY NOW AND FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!! Your Sister In Christ, Katy 
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